Every memory I have of feeling alone, when I look back, I can see I wasn’t.
I’ve learned to work on forgiving myself first. If I can’t manage that, then there’s no path to forgive others and being forgiven doesn’t help.
As my sweet Sunshine gets older, so many long-forgotten memories of my own childhood are coming back to me. My favorite from this morning is a memory of my mama playing hot lava with us in the living room when I couldn’t have been more than four. She was jumping from the couch to a cushion on the floor and belly-laughing.
It takes so much more than love to make a long-term relationship work well. But when hearts get broken, great love can sometimes hold you together while they mend.
If I could only choose one word to describe my twenties, it would be “big.” I had big fun; I made big mistakes; I felt big hurt; and I found big love.
I can’t choose a word for my thirties yet because we aren’t even halfway through, but so far, “humbled” and “grateful” are neck and neck.
I am falling in love with Massachusetts.
Snowy days are my favorite–beautiful, sparkling, white. My thoughts swirl like snowflakes in the wind while my fingers chase after them over the page like children with their tongues out.
I cannot get used to the sky here–each day a new shade of blue I’ve never seen and can’t describe and the clouds move so fast there’s no time to decide their shape.
And when the morning sun hits winter tree limbs after a freezing rain, it looks as if diamonds blossomed overnight.
We are rich, indeed.