I want to throw my heart in the wash. Hot/Cold, Heavy Duty Cycle and see if these feelings will come out.
I want to know why I hold on to people and things that don’t hold on to me.
I want to shake my head so hard the facts fall out, because I don’t want to see this as what it’s become.
I want to have already done the work I see before me.
I want to know why they’re dead and if they all have to die and I have to stay here, why does it have to feel this way every time?
And why can’t I stop myself from loving them all so much? Why doesn’t my heart ever run out? Even when it seems impossible that I could ever love again, even when I hope I won’t; there I go.
I want to pull a dark, heavy sky over our heads so we can talk without being overheard by God.
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Thank you for writing this and sharing it. I am also grieving the loss of a dear friend, and it hit home.
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